Time to take out the corduroys and the flannel shirts and Doc Marten boots
I just had a
long day. Well, not naman that long but I had to wake up early to go the
office. The vehicles were stuck somewhere in Edsa and I had to haul myself up
to the MRT station just so I could arrive in Ortigas before the boss does. Mrt
in the morning. Oh god, I just can’t deal with it. I just can’t. And I’m sure
neither can you. But damn it, we live in a country where there’s too much
inefficiency and corruption and utter stupidity that our brains had already
turned into mush no? At the office I spent the whole day struggling to piece
together words to create a cumulative effect. Sometimes when I stare at my own
words long enough I start to see abstract shapes that would probably only make
sense if something is unlocked in the brain. I actually like what I’m doing.
Earlier during a yosi break I started thinking of going back to print full
time. It didn’t help that I was thinking of this someone and his face kept ping-ponging
inside my head, making me eat my cuticles. As the afternoon wore on, however, my
TV work began to intrude. I had a scheduled afternoon meeting in Timog only I couldn’t
be there because I had no energy to go up to the boss and tell her that I’d be
leaving early. Finally I did get to Timog way after the meeting’s done and was
able to talk to my other boss about the episode. It’s basically same old same
old. Nothing exciting there. Maybe when I sit down to write the script there’ll
be some excitement. But not now. Now, I’m just tired and a little bit lost. I’m
neither here or there. So as I download the season finale of Game of Thrones I
found myself listening to Chemical Romance which eventually led me to Pearl Jam
and REM. Suddenly I wanted to go out. I wanted to listen to a rock
band and drink. Just relax. At first I thought it was probably because I was
tired and that I desperately needed to unwind. But soon I realized it was because I was angry. I was angry because the day had been
long and all these hassles were making me very lonely. Someone called also,
inviting me for something that I no longer do. I don’t do anything these days
and so far I’m happy with my decision. I’m a bit saner, a bit healthier, and
yes I could now sit in a cafe and not think that I should be doing something
else. I’m calmer. But tonight though, tonight, I wanted to rock out. I wanted
to get out of my system this tug and pull, this inis at life that’s silently eating me. I wanted to release
something, burn this negative emotion, turn it into sweat and tears and bask in
diluted happiness and let everything pass just so I could sleep soundly tonight
and start all over again tomorrow. June 16, 2014
Nuong ako ay isa pang full-fledge na print writer parati akong on the look out sa mga rakets. kahit ano papatulan ko. kahit anong magazine basta makita ko lang yung byline ko super happy na ako. kaya naman mula CCP hanggang product launching pati na rin sa mga usapang sexual na-tackle ko. eto ang isa sa mga remnants ng aking oh-so-colorful career in print. try ninyo to, who knows baka mag-enjoy kayo....
SOP tips (O kung papaano huwag matakot makipagtalik sa telepono)
I can see why most people find sex on the phone daunting. Kasi naman, kailangan nito ng mga special skills. Kung iisipin mo ng maigi, mas mahirap nga ito kesa sa actual na sex, dahil sa sop kailangan active kayo pareho. Kadalasan kasi, during coitus, kung minsan meron passive at meron naman active. Puwedeng active yung lalaki habang yung babae nakahiga lang, passive. Or vice-versa.
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“Do you think we’d get tickets?” Robert asked me.
Sure, I said, I mean, how many Manila residents are actually thinking of going to Sagada on Holy Week? If we were going to Boracay or Puerto Gallera I’d be worried. But of course I’m stupid so what do I know. When we arrived at the station there were already a dozen stranded passengers waiting to get seats. By this time, Robert’s frien…